Staying sane

“Yes, i had to, just to stay
sane, but this 211 beer keeps
Running through my brain”
Quarter’s seized as being fun,
As 1 more beer and the insanity has Begun.
9 years sober, 3 more months
ahead, instead of passing out, its called Going to Bed..
Subduing life, learning to relax,
Realizing these AAs have got your back.
Eating good, and sleeping well, learning that drinking can go to hell..
Being someone to participate in groups, playing games and shooting Hoops.
Listening to music, your favorite beats, staying at home not running the streets..
Watching TV, Great with me,
Learning stuff by watching discovery..
Without the drink, im more at ease, drinking it seems, never Agrees..
Tossing and turning, all night long,
trying to sleep but awake till the dawn.
Steady nerves and heart beat intact, singing ‘lord im glad it wasn’t a heart attack’.
Social media, it can be really neat,
Talking to an ole buddy or the new ones u meet..
No more fights, At least its been a while, not having black eyes, and not acting wild.
Not giving up, as i normally would do, commitments and making goals,
and earning trust from you..
Without the drink my life has improved, if u cant quit for someone,
Then do it for you..
C S U, and jails it seemed, was my place for rehab and others like me.
We all, or no, have a story to tell,
Insanity is subtle, and it puts you through hell..
Believe it or not, sometimes it’s hard
But easier than before, as it you put your guards..
Serenity its said, is what we need,
But it sure beats the insanity..
Family’s death’s and relatives too, is very sad, But too damn true..
Honesty today, being respectful to others, growing your insights and pleases our mothers..
With or without the drink, being one day at a time, i do my best to think and it remains on my mind..
Subtle that sanity was so dam loose, you G O T to know, its got you in a Noose..
For an alcoholic or simply drunk, if u will, it’ll take your life and leave you nill.
There’s alot to it and i shouldn’t boast, but im alive today and to that,
I WILL TOAST!
It’s so different to me, as u can reveal to Yourself, There is N O trusting that DAMN LIQUOR SHELF!